For the second year in a row, I am participating in the Adoption Interview Project, brainchild of Heather at Production Not Reproduction. This year over 120 adoption bloggers (not necessarily Open Adoption–but bloggers who write about adoption in some way–members from every part of the triad) are participating all over the ether! To learn more about the project go here. I am pleased to introduce my readers to the partner I was matched with-Laura Denver of Fertility Alphabet Soup. Right off I appreciated Laura’s frankness, clarity, and ability to morph her message and blog from that of a fertility context to one engaged in issues relating to foster care and adoption. As someone who holds the possibility of a fost-adopt of an older sibling in the wings for years down the road–I am pleased to have connected with Laura as a resource. You can also find our interview over on her blog when you stop on by!
“Anything can happen.” Nobody involved in fostercare is a soothsayer. We’ve seen kids go back to parents still on drugs. We’ve seen them split up half-siblings that have an established relationship to be with a full-sibling that was just born “to keep siblings together.” Even when we’ve been told that there is “no way” the parents are getting their kid back and things are moving toward TPR (termination of parental rights), the parent works their plan very diligently and is able to be reunified with their child. Anything goes.
I started the blog for myself. I used to keep a journal but moved online because it was easier to keep it all in one place. My readers have morphed since I started. In the beginning, I had a few readers I knew from infertility support groups. Now I have more from the foster and adoption side. It makes sense that as my journey has changed so has my readership. I don’t advertise, I am blocked from the search engine so when somebody outside of my known circle sends me a comment, it’s a little exciting.
The ah-ha moment came to me not because of parenting, but more from understanding why kids end up in the foster system. As a parent, I have support from my parents, my neighbors, my co-workers. I have the luxury to be able to reach out online to gather advice or skills I need to parent. A lot of the families in the foster system do not have that support. There is so much dysfunction (drugs, abuse, mental health) that they are not able to create healthy relationships. They don’t have the support network that can catch them when they fall. The kids get caught up in the middle. It’s made me feel very fortunate to know that if something happens, I will have someone to be there for me.
I love the looks I get when I go through the grocery line with WIC checks on one bill, then expensive balsamic vinegar and organic foods on the other. It took me swallowing my pride to get WIC (all foster kids get WIC), but I don’t qualify for the child deduction from the IRS it helps a little with the bills. We’ve had kids living with us for over a year, just not 1 for more than 180 days at a time.
I have several blogs that I follow and can reach out if I need a different perspective. Right now I’m trying to find support to help with creating an open relationship after foster care with the birth family. With all of our foster kids, we’ve established a relationship with the birth family. This was an unusual case where the original foster family had a relationship but we did not. The birth family is out of state, which makes things even harder. Right now we’re just taking it slowly.
We have always wanted kids. We thought that down the road we’d foster after we had our own family. We also thought that it would be easy to have kids. We went down the path of assisted reproductive technology but stopped after “only” 2 IUI. Adoption wasn’t our first choice but it wasn’t our last. We still have the option to try injections and then IVF. But we decided we didn’t care if we were biologically related to our child, our goal was just to be a parent. I think we were a little naive about all of the appointments, paperwork, visits, drama that we’d have to go through to bring a foster child in our home. I love my daughter and yet I felt I was always going to be a mom of two. We’re still undecided as to what happens next.
We totally support each other. I put one of the kids in time out and my husband happened to walk in the door. The kid started protesting but my husband said, “I don’t know what you did, but whatever it was – was bad enough for LaLa to put you there to think about it.” He didn’t even question my reasoning.
1. Discipline (and how inconsistency does more harm to your kid)2. Mannersa. your neighbor’s garden is not a playground for your kidb. restaurants, going out in public toc. I’m sorry, thank you and not cursingd. adults, talking to3. Financial Planning (saving for college and still putting food on the table today)